(this speech was prepared for Toastmasters)
You all know how scary angry people can be. They’re
like a whirl wind – trying to pull you in and push you away at the same
time. When my father was angry, he used to yell: One mistake can ruin your
life. He was never explicit about what that mistake might be. But whenever
he yelled, I feared I might have made THE one mistake. I imagined that a
huge straw coming down from the sky to suck me off the planet into the
outer void. And my father didn’t want to be anywhere near me when that
happened.
I decided that the solution to this problem was for my
father never to be angry with me. Then I would be safe. But I could never
control him, or the other people in my life who became angry.
Byron Katie’s Judge Your Neighbor Worksheet is a tool
to help you examine your thoughts. about angry people and scary
situations. The name is intentionally provocative.
We all know we’re not supposed to judge our neighbors.
But we all do it. And then we judge ourselves because we’ve done
something we’re not supposed to do. The Worksheet is a way to judge our
neighbors and reach a healing outcome.
In case you don’t know who their neighbors are, I’ll
make it simple. Your neighbors are everybody else on the planet. That’s
everybody, whether you’ve met them or not, who might upset, irritate,
disappoint or frighten you. Yes, politicians and movie actors are
included. We’re always judging people, whether we’ve met them or not.
The Judge Your Neighbor Worksheet uses 4 questions,
turn-arounds and an affirmation.
The questions are:
- Is it true?
- Can I absolutely know it’s true.
- How do I feel when I think that thought?
- Who would I be without that thought?
To show you how it works, I’ll use myself as an
example.
I make my judgement. Then I ask the questions, and
answer them.
I said: My Father should not be angry with me. Then I
ask: Is that true?
Of course it’s true. He shouldn’t be angry with me.
I’m a good person. If he saw things from my perspective, he’d be
sympathetic. He’s wrong to be angry. He reminds me of the big bad troll
in Billy Goats Gruff, always yelling: Who’s that going Trip Trap Trip
Trap Over My Bridge?
But he’s really the treacherous little billy goat
gruff, saying to the giant straw, "Don’t eat me! My tasty little
girl is coming along after me – eat her instead." That’s wrong!
Now I’ve certainly justified my judgement. But it’s
not over yet. Then I ask the second question:
My father should not be angry with me. Can I absolutely
know that’s true?
I really don’t know. Maybe from his point of view I
ruined his plans or got in his way. Maybe I disappointed him or disobeyed
him. And maybe in his view, these are reasons to be angry. I can’t read
his mind and I don’t know what’s right for him. So, I don’t
absolutely know that my father should not be angry with me.
Now it’s time for the third question. Again, I repeat
my judgement and ask the question.
My father should not be angry with me: How do I feel
when I think that thought?
I’m scared. That big straw might come down and suck me
off the planet.
And the fourth question:
My father should not be angry with me. Who would I be
without that thought?
I’d be calm, confident, unafraid. I’d be able to
look at my father as someone who needs a kind word – not someone to run
away from.
So, is there any sane reason to keep that thought: My
father should not be angry with me?
We’ve examined it – and rationally there’s nothing
to it. My father’s anger is in his head. I don’t have to have it in
mine. He can’t really make a giant straw come out of the sky to suck me
off of the planet. But it still doesn’t feel right that he’s angry
with me.
I’ve asked four questions, I’ve looked for the truth
in my judgement. I learned that I wasn’t really afraid of my father’s
anger. I was afraid of my thoughts about his anger. What it might mean
about my future, my survival.
The next step of Byron Katie’s worksheet deals with
thoughts. This is where the real work on the Worksheet happens: the
turnarounds and the affirmation.
Usually there are several turn-arounds. A turnaround is
where you state the opposite of the original judgement, and ask if it is
as true or truer.
What are the opposites of My father should not be angry
with me?
One turnaround would be:
I should not be angry with my father. – That’s
Interesting. I’m angry with him for being angry with me. And that doesn’t
feel good. So, this turnaround is as true as the original.
There’s another turnaround:
I should not be angry with me.
I’ve bought into this whole silly story. I’ve become angry with myself
because I may have made THE mistake and now a big straw may come down from
the sky and suck me off the planet. I could give myself the sympathy I
deserve. That’s a pretty scary story to have made up and then believed.
This turnaround gives me a new perspective on that
straw. The straw is the belief that anger or fear accomplish anything.
When someone is angry with me, that’s the straw talking. The anger or
fear is what pulls a person off planet – out of touch with the truth.
The angry person is clutching onto the straw, not the other way around. At
any time a person can let go of the anger and return to Earth. It’s NOT
a permanent mistake.
Are there any other turn arounds? I can find one more:
My father should be angry with me. That sounds crazy.
But that IS what’s happening. My father’s anger is a part of who he
is. It’s as natural as the wind. Or a whale’s spout. Thar she blows! I
cannot control it. It may not be right, but it is a fact. I might be
happier if I accept it as just one of those things that happens.
Is that true? Am I really willing to have him angry with
me?
The fact is that my father is angry with me. That’s
the way the universe is, and I have no power to change it. When I try to
fight with the universe I always lose. So, this turnaround is truer than
the original.
Once you’ve found a turnaround that is truer than the
original judgement, the next step is to turn it into an affirmation.
The affirmation for My father should not be angry with
me is: I am willing for my father to be angry with me. If I tell myself
that I am willing for my father to be angry with me, that’s nothing more
than acknowledging the truth. It puts me in charge. My father’s anger is
no longer a surprise or an attack. It’s something that I’m allowing.
It’s no different from saying I allow the wind to blow. My father’s
anger is based on his interpretation of events – on his thoughts. When I
accept that, I’m not fighting with the universe, and I’m not fighting
with my father.
I may as well add the affirmation: I’m willing to have
a huge straw come down out of the sky and suck me off the planet. There’s
nothing I can do about it. And living my life in fear doesn’t help
matters. For all I know, living in fear is THE one mistake that can ruin
my life.
Four questions and turn it around. Thanks to Byron Katie’s
worksheet, I have judged my father and myself and found us both innocent.
Byron Katie’s worksheet can help you deal with any
angry people or scary situations. Just ask four questions and turn it
around.
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